Its been 5 months since i have made an update here.... I.. couldn't sleep properly and got nothing to do..
my insomnia is attacking me again its been 3 days and i haven't slept properly, I only get 2-3 hours of sleep each day. I try to force myself to sleep but it becomes much more difficult for me.
Whenever i close my eyes different images and voices are sprouting inside my head. images of past events that I thought I have forgotten but yet they are coming back...
many things have happened lately and my soul seems to be lost..
most of the time.
such full of misunderstandings, self-pity and STRESS.
i feel so sad, depressed,ignored, aggressive
*i am aggressive* all the time sometimes I don't even know whats the origin of it.. hormones.. PMS.. Bipolarity... split personality?its like some kind of energy is sucking out the positive charges in me.
heck.. i dunno... my brain is all messed up. literally.
I used to cope up with these things before~ trying to replace then with smiles and laughter but i guess my heart couldn't take it any longer...
even trying to force myself to have a happy-go-lucky persona which i am NOTi guess all I needed is some time to let it out and think things thoroughly...
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH goddamtit..
when will this negative feeling go away.. shooo shoooo
although im a bit better now..(LOL) thanks to a friend
55% percent of depression is somehow gone and slapped away from me and the 45%... i'll handle that myself please. = A =""
i'll also buy a journal again to write some stuffs.. i have many of them when i was in high school, guess i need one of those again,
have some activities to go to, *KOREAN HORROR FILM FEST!* and meet up with some old friends...i miss those people..
dghah... its 4:25am.. i have to go to school later at 6:30..
i still got 1 hour of sleep. yey.
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it's okay to be sad and feel depressed as long as you won't forget to feel happy again" -anonymous"everyone is unique in its own way. don't expect everyone to be like you."